Something about Nightmare 

Have you ever had a nightmare and you wish you didn’t have it on the first place? I hate the kind of nightmare where I am involuntary separated from someone special in that dream. I don’t like hearing the word “death,” too, because I am not ready losing people who are close to me. So, a nightmare that is about one’s death is definitely not my preferred dream. 

I am told that everybody including me would die. Death is a part of the natural human’s life cycle. I should not be scared, right? But, it’s hard to not feel scared and worried. 

The nightmare kept me awake all night. It makes me feel nervous the next day because I am afraid what if the nightmare turns real. I am just not ready to be separated from someone who means the world to me. I am hoping to get answers. 

This morning, I sat on the church. The sermon talked how God loves us more than a mother loves her baby. The priest also told us to not be worry because God is merciful. And so, it came to my understanding that God owns our life, and He loves us dearly. Losing someone due to death is a sad thing, but it will not be a forever sad. Good thing will come up, like rainbow after rain. Don’t think it too hard, but knowing that it will happen and when it happens, God will make it beautiful in His ways. 


Life and Death

What is life? What is death?Do you believe in life after death?

These three questions have been haunting me for quite sometimes due to recent family events. The opinion or reflection that I am presenting here is solely based on my personal experience and religious belief. I am writing it to share with you what I think life after death looks like. There is no intention to convert or change your personal point of view. 
If life is any activities that take place on earth while we are still breathing, so death is the reverse of life. To answer whether one believes in life after death involves one’s religious belief. What I’ve learned through my religion is that once we are dead, our spirit goes to stages such as purification before being united with our God–the One who creates us–again. If we live and do things according to His will, while we are on earth, the route to reunite with Him is quicker. Once we are with Him, we no longer feel insecure and sad. We feel joyful all the time. 
I was told that Holy bible is our “book of life” and that whenever we feel unsure we should pray and read bible. I was also told that we should let go, let God to take control of our life. Yes, we still have to exercise some efforts, but we should also let things happen according to His will. To summarize this, picture our life as a novel. We are the main character of that novel, and God is the primary author. We could express to Him what we want or wish, but He is the one who decides whether that role is suitable for us. We could say, “no, don’t let him/her die right now. Maybe a few more years,” but if He says no, this is the time, we could not do that much. It eventually happens, but God will make the way for those who are left behind. For example, caretakers will have more free time which could be used for better purposes, something that could not get done before. Understanding this sophisticated sequences help me to understand why we live and why we die and what happens to us once we die, as well as what happens to those who are left. This goes back to the title of the card that I received from a priest years ago. “Life is changed, not ended.” Those who die, his spirit is still alive. Those who are left behind, they undergo adjustment and move on. And so, yes, I believe there is a life after death.