[Fictional Story] Susan and Her Choices

This is the second series of “The Return of Hans.” All the names and characters in this story are fictive. “The Return of Hans” could be accessed on this page, too.

Susan indeed is a busy lady. She still works even on the day before Christmas while everybody in her office is out for a vacation. Susan lately has been into a social mission in which she hopes to build a non-profit organization for families of children with Autism. This is a tough project for her, and she needs an affluent person to help her. The person who has been on her mind is a techpreneur who also cares for the children welfare. His name is James, and everybody knows about him because of his recent nomination as the Man of the Year 2019. Susan knows that this would be difficult to get in touch with him, but it did not stop her from reaching out to James. She tried to contact James from LinkedIn all the way to Instagram. Nothing works until one day, Susan gets an idea. James is doing a live video on his Instagram, and you could type a question for him in which he will randomly select and answer the questions. That day is Susan’s luckiest day because James finally replies her message.

I need a person to sit on the board for my upcoming non-profit organization. The organization is to provide respite services for families of children with Autism. I know you care for children’s health and education. Can I send a proposal for you to take a look?” Susan exhales after clicking the send button. She has been monitoring James’s Instagram for hours. She wants to make sure that she is among the first five followers who types the questions to James. When James responds to her questions privately via Direct Message, Susan jumps out from her chair and does a little dancing.

Although work life has been good to her, personal life is rocky. Susan argues a lot with her mother. She has to face her cousins who look at her and ask why she is not married. All of her cousins are married with kids already. Susan, at the age of 34, is still single and doesn’t show any signs to be in a relationship. Hans is still waiting for her, but this will not last, too. Susan comforts herself in her work. She wants to create a non-profit organization for families of children with Autism because she knows how hard it is to raise a child with Autism. Getting a respite even only for one hour is very helpful.

James has caught Susan’s attention after she watched James’s presentation on YouTube. James is a younger guy, 30 years old, who has a lot of followers and many women want to date him. He is a type of person who basically every in-law wants. He has a smiley face, good stable job, and what even nice is that he is graduated from Harvard. Well, Susan is not interested in dating him. She knows that James is too young, out of reach, and what more important is that James has different religion from Susan. Growing up in a Catholic family makes Susan think that it is better to live with someone who has a same faith with her. Someone who can accompany her to go to church every Saturday night and celebrate Christmas Eve together. What Susan does not know is that her path is about to twist after her meeting with James.

Susan is scheduled to meet up with James’s secretary on Wednesday morning. Susan has 30 minutes to explain why she needs James to sit on the board and what James could do in the long run. The secretary escorts her out to the main lobby, and Susan will not get the results until two weeks later.

As Susan walks out of the door, her phone beeps.

Hey, Susan. This is Hans. Merry Christmas. I am back in town. Can I pick you up for dinner tonight?

Susan rolls her eyes as she reads Hans’s message.

Fine. Do you want to hang out in my apartment? I will order pizza. There’s a lot of traffic jam...”

Anything you want. I bring nice gift to you. 😊”


Susan hurries to come home. She needs to clean up her living room. She uses her living room as an office, and she doesn’t expect that Hans will come.

Hans looks tired and old. He has this shy eye when he looks up to Susan. Every time Susan looks at Hans she always feels guilty. She feels bad because she cannot reply his love to her. They sit at the table and eat pizza. Hans pulls out a square box from his pocket. It’s a Tiffany box.

I spy your Instagram. I know that you are a fan of Tiffany.


So, here’s your Christmas gift to you. It’s not a proposal, so don’t give me that pale-looking face.

Thanks, but I don’t wear jewelry.”

Can you open it first?

Susan unwraps the gift box, and she sees a Tiffany key pendant with yellow and white diamonds. It’s pretty but she is unsure if she could accept this gift.

Hans, this is pretty but I cannot take it. I don’t deserve it. I ..

Hans interrupts and says “You want to say that you cannot reply my love? 10 years of my love and admiration to you.”

Susan cries and Hans hugs her.

I don’t like to force you, Susan. There’s no other women whom I like except you. Just please take that gift. Do you want me to put it on for you?

Hans insists to put the necklace on Susan’s neck. They both sitting on the balcony and watch the streets from up there.

Hans cannot stay in town too long. He has to go back to the States. Susan drives him to the airport.

Don’t you want to back to the States with me?

I miss the States, but I don’t think I can back to the States now.”

Okay, Susan. Thank you for your time! It’s nice to see you. I am very grateful. Pass my greetings to your parents, ok?

Ok! Safe flight!

Susan has nowhere to go after that. She decides to go back to her apartment, but suddenly her phone is ringing.


Is this Susan?

Yes, who is this?

Hi, I know this is a holiday, but I am James. I am reviewing your proposal.”

Susan cannot believe that James calls her.

Yes, what do you think? Can you do it?”

Uhm, we need to meet in person before I make a decision. Are you available tomorrow morning at 8 o’clock?

Sure! Thank you.”

Susan drives home with a big smile on her face.

Susan waits for James in the lobby. She feels nervous. This non-profit organization is something she wants to do after she is retired from her job at the hospital. Thus far, she has recruited three board members, two are from media industry and one is from business sector. With James on board, she believes that this organization will be launched soon.

Good morning, Miss Susan.” James’s secretary greets her.

Hi, good morning! Good to see you again.”

Please follow me. Mr. James has been waiting for you.

Susan enters a meeting room that could fit up to 16 people. The meeting room has huge window facing tall buildings and high ways. James sits at the table and greets Susan. “Good morning, Susan!”

Good morning, Mr. James!”

Ah, please call me James. Have a seat.

Thank you.

So, I look up your proposal. I want to know why this has to do with autism? And why me? You know I am not in the medical field.”

I am a child and family director in the hospital. Every day I meet with parents of children with developmental disabilities especially Autism. Autism is a neurodevelopmental disorder and it affects the brain, speech, social and motor skills. Parents whose kids are diagnosed with Autism live twice harder than parents of typically developed children. Having a respite is very helpful for them.”

As for you, I have been observing your journey in the startup business including your education platform. It has a long term value and it appears to me from your profile, you care for children’s health. Thus, being a board member in this organization could fulfill your mission.”

Wow! You are very thorough. I am quite impressed. I am very busy this year and I don’t think I can commit in this role. However, could you send me the draft on how you are going to budget this respite service. I assume this is free?

Well, Yes, I could prepare that draft. How soon do you need the draft?

Can you give it to me next month?


Is there a number to reach you?

Yes, here’s my business card.”

What degree are you graduated from?

Social Work.

I see. It’s a good field. I am impressed with your passion in this field.”

Thank you.”

Susan feels relieved. Now, she has to get the draft ready. Meanwhile, she gets a message from Hans.

Hey, I am in Hong Kong already. The 18hours flight is about to start. Aha! Talk to you soon. Don’t work so hard!”

Susan types back “ok. Safe flight!

One month later…

Hi Susan, this is James. I am in your hospital. Can I have a tour in your department? Is that possible?

Right now? Just the tour ok? It’s not allowed to observe parent session without consent form. Sorry.

That’s fine.”

Susan gives James a tour facility. James looks impressed and shows interest in getting to know how this project will go further.

Uhm, Susan, are you free next Thursday. I am invited to this non profit event. I wonder if you are interested in accompanying me. Plus, you could recruit more board members. What do you think?”

“I have a meeting until 7 PM. Not sure I could make it there.”

“Don’t worry, cause I will be late, too. Just call me when you are there.”

“Alright then.”

Susan arrives at the ballroom where that event is held. The event is to collect donation to support bone marrow research. Susan calls James as she is not sure where he is. Suddenly, she hears someone calls her name.

Susan, here!” James yells at her.

She sees him and walks toward him. Right that moment, she secretly acknowledge how handsome James is. No wonder so many girls chase after him.

Susan sits next to James. James introduce her as a good friend of him who works with families and children. Susan suddenly feels small in that event because she doesn’t know anyone in that room. They all are famous and do important things like James. It looks like that James recognizes her feeling. He taps Susan’s shoulder and says “let’s get out from here.

What? But it’s not yet finished.

Don’t worry.

James holds her hand and they walk to the main lobby. “Let’s eat dinner. Ah, leave your car here. Give me your car’s key and my driver will send it back to your apartment.”

“Waiiiit… no, no, I can go home directly.”

“Come on, I will be out for business trip for two weeks. I don’t understand with what you wrote in the proposal.”


“My car is here. Hop on.”

“How do you get volunteers?”

“Well, that’s the part where I need you to be on board. You have this edu-tech platform right? You could advertise this on your platform, and from there I could select a pool of volunteers.”

“Who will train them and do the match-making?”


“Who is going to make sure that the volunteers do no harm to the kids?”

“I have a board member who has a legal team who will look over that part.”

“Aha. So why don’t you launch?”

“I need more funding that’s another reason I look for you.”

“Now I know… Why are you so enthusiastic about this?? Do you have a family with Autism?”

“No, I don’t. I do a lot of home visits and meet lots of parents. Life is stressful for them, because some of these kids need your full attention.”

“Are you married?”


“Are you dating?”


“How old are you again?”

“Thirty four. And why you ask personal question?”

“Because you are weird. I mean you are interested in unusual stuff.”

So, are you going to be on board??”

“You are a straight forward lady, aren’t you??”

“Please answer.”

“Yes, I will be on board. Madam. Happy??”

“Thank you. I am leaving.”

“No, the food is not here.”

“I am not hungry.”

“Are you mad? I am sorry.”

“I don’t like a personal question. Plus, I don’t know about you.”

I’m sorry. People usually ask so many questions from personal to business to me.

Two weeks later…

Susan, this is James. Can we meet? I need you to sign the contract.”


Hans is in town. He insists to drop Susan to James’s office.

Hans, is that you?

Hans turns his body and is surprised to see James.

Hey, Buddy! What’s up?

They both hug each other and give a pat on the back.

Susan looks blank. Not sure what to say.

What are you doing here? I heard you moved out to Bay area?”

“Yes, I did. I got a job over there after finishing my contract in Harvard.”

“I hear you are popular, too.”

“So, what brought you here in my building?”

“Aaw…this is your building? Cool! I just drop my friend, Susan. She is right there.”

“Susan?? You know her?”

“Of course! You know her, too?”

“I am going to meet her. That’s why I wait for her here.”

Hans frowns as he hears this.

I don’t know that you both know each other.” Said Susan

Hans and James look at each other. James says, “We are in the same university. Hans is my senior back then.”

Hans let Susan talks with James. He waits in the lobby.

Susan, how do you know Hans?”

“We have known each other for a long time.”

“Are you by the chance the girl who has made Hans single all these years??”

“What are you talking?”

“There was a rumor back when I was in Harvard that Hans liked a girl who was also a student in the States but different cities. Hans liked that girl but she rejected him. Eventually Hans could not forget about her.”

Susan doesn’t know what to say.

“It must be you. We guys know when another guy looks at a woman with that kind of eye that means he likes her. I see that in Hans’s eyes.”

“Ok, I am leaving.”

“Susan, you are hilarious! I wish I could talk to you more, but I have another meeting. Tell Hans to catch up with me later.”

“Why didn’t you tell me that James is the person whom you will meet?”

“I told you. He is a famous techpreneur in this country..”

“You did not tell me his name.”

“Do I have to report everything to you?”

“You could have told me his name.”

“Err, I don’t think that’s necessary. Plus, you always show up whenever you like.”

“Of course that’s necessary.”

“Ehm…. we are not dating.”


“That’s true. If you think by giving me this necklace implies that we are dating you are wrong! I am not comfortable with your possessive attitude.

Susan what are you talking?”

“You know what I am talking. You try to monitor with whom I meet and go. Here’s your necklace. I don’t need it. Bye!” Susan leaves Hans.

Hans returns to the States the next day without leaving any messages to Susan. He sent the necklace to Susan’s mom. Susan and her mom have a mouth fight after that.

Aren’t you crazy rejecting Hans?

Yes, I am crazy.”

“He is a good guy. He waits for you for a long time.

No, I don’t like him. Plus I have an issue with his possessive attitude.”

Susan is leaving her home and when she is about to turn on her car’s engine, James calls her.


“Madam, you sound strict.”

“I am busy right now. What do you want?”

“I have to entertain kids in orphanage. Can you help me?”

“Where’s your secretary?”

“Don’t you know that she is off for a week?”


“Err, right now..”

“Madam, you look awful. Kids will be scared of you.”

“Can you please shut up?!?”

“Fine. Help me. I never talked to children.”

“What do you mean with never??”

“I don’t do this type of work. I deal with adults, investors, interns and accountant, ok?”

Susan helps James to run the event. The organization that owns this orphanage has a business relationship with James’s office.

Can I treat you for a meal?”

“No need. I want to go home.”

“Well, can I go to your home?”

“Nooo.. I don’t think it’s appropriate.”

“So, let’s eat McD with me.”

You are really annoying.”

“And, I like to annoy you.”

“You sound not in the good mood.”


“Do you have a fight with Hans? Is he the one who gives you a key pendant?”


“It’s hard to not stare at that pretty pendant. Everyone knows that pendant must be expensive. The other day my sister sets me on a blind date. Guess what? She shows me this jewelry website and asks me to buy that pendant. The one you wear.”

“She is brave…”

“I left the restaurant and yelled at my sister on the phone.”

“Hans and I are not dating. The pendant is from him. It is a Christmas gift.”

“I know. Because you are special to him. I don’t mind give an expensive gift to my loved one. But this girl whom I just met asked for it. That was ridiculous!”

“I got it.

“Susan, can I go with you when you are visiting an orphanage as part of your job?”

“Yes… I just need you to sign a consent form.”

“Thank you. Also, can we also meet more often?”


“Because I want to.”

“What if I don’t want?”

“I will keep nagging like a kid.”

“Hah? Are you crazy?”

“So, I want to confess. The first time you reached out to me through LinkedIn, I actually read your message. I looked up your profile and read your blog. I enjoyed reading your blog. I did not randomly select your question on Instagram. Instead I purposely chose you. I thought heaven must be on my side because you were watching my live video.”

Susan is speechless.

“I know right now is not the best time to talk about it. But, I am so busy and I don’t want to miss this important talk.”

“James, is this a prank?”

“No, Susan. This is not a prank. I want to know more about you.”

“Get to know as if a man and a woman?”


“But, I am 34 and you are 30. We have a different religious belief.”

“You don’t look like an old lady. As for religious, if it is meant to be together. I don’t mind to change but this will take a long time.”

“James. I am not ready.”

“I will make you ready.”

“James, this is not a game.”

“Do I look like someone who is playing a game?”

“You are crazy.”

“One must be crazy enough to ask someone like you to go on a date.”

“I don’t know what to say.”

“No need to say. Just stay beside me.”

**to be continued…**

The Return of Hans

**All names and characters in this story are fictive.**

The last time Susan spoke with Hans was on Christmas day, 5 years ago. Hans is neither her best friend nor her special friend. He is simply a mutual friend, but he has been around her for 8 years. Susan doesn’t say much to him because she thinks if she has no special interest toward him, she should not try to get his attention. On the other hand, Hans occasionally sends a random message on important events, like birthday and Christmas. Not every year, it’s only when he feels he wants it.

Susan has been keeping herself busy with her job as a hospital director. Seeking a love mate is not her priority. She thinks getting married is a hassle and even if she decides to get married, finding the right guy seems a hard task for her, perhaps even harder than running a hospital. She fell in love twice in her life, but Cupid was not on her side. She had a nice guy back when she was in school, but she decided to let him go because she thought it was too early for her to commit in a romantic relationship. Hans was among the guys whom she was introduced with when she was in a college. Hans was a serious guy at that time, and perhaps still, and this somewhat scared Susan. A friend asked her why she did not want to date Hans, and Susan said Hans was too serious and appeared to be rigid. She disliked that kind of feeling. Too much expectation. Susan left every possible romantic relationship up in the air with any guys who is fond of her. This becomes her expertise. Love life is just not her thing, and she can’t explain why.

After so long not talking each other, Susan was surprised to hear news from Hans. Their conversation was about holiday activities, and as usual, Susan kept it short and simple. Two weeks after their first phone talk, Hans sent him a message. This time he said, “Hey, I will be back home for a vacation. A short visit, a week. Would it be okay if I visit your workplace when I am in town?” Susan kept that message, not sure what she would say. This morning, Susan replied. “Ok. Come to my workplace. I’ll send you the address.”

Three weeks later…

Hi, I’ve just arrived this morning. Are you busy this afternoon? Can I stop by?

Susan replies immediately. “Sure, How about 1 o’clock?” I have free time about an hour and after that I’ve got to see a client at 2.”

Yes. That sounds good to me! I will visit my sister after that.”

Hans’s little sister is married already, and she has three kids. Her little sister is a chatty person. Her personality is the opposite of Hans’s personality.



Maam, your guest is here. His name is Hans. Should I let him in?


Hey, Susan! Long time no see! You are looking great as always and doesn’t change that much since the last time I saw you.”

Hahaha.. how are you Hans? How’s life on the other side of the earth?

Both Susan and Hans are studying in the United States. They both worked in the States, but in different cities. Susan left home for good, while Hans remained in the States.

So, this is your office. Looking nice and you have a nice view from here.

Thank you! So, what’s up?”

” Nothing new. I saw your travel pictures on Instagram. It looked like you traveled to different places. Meanwhile, I worked like a hell. Your last picture on Instagram made me to come home.


“Yes, I’ve always read your captions. The last picture made me booked a ticket. It’s last minute. But, it feels good to be back home.”

How long are you going to be in town?

A week. I have a few important meetings next week, so I must return to work next week.”

I see.”

Hm, are you dating anyone right now?


Why? You are not young anymore, you know?

Yes, I am aware of that, but I like to live this kind of life.

Are you serious??

Susan doesn’t know what to say. She smiles. She wonders why this guy is here and asks such a direct question.

Susan, I am here because I have been thinking of you all these years. The last time you rejected me was my devastating moment. I was mad at you, so I didn’t look for you for a while.”

“I see. I am sorry.”

However, you are always on my mind. I even remember your birthday. So, I still text you even if your answer is short.”

“I know. I am sorry again for giving you a hard time.”

“No, you don’t have to feel sorry. So, this is the reason I am coming home. I want to ask you to go on a date with me. What do you think?”

“Susan, listen to me. We both are not young anymore. You have impressed me so much years ago and still. Don’t you think we should try?”

“Hans, thank you for expressing your feeling. Can we talk about this another time?”

“Susan, what are you waiting for?”

“I just need more time. You come home and suddenly ask this type of question. I am not ready to answer.”

“Sigh. Fine, Susan. Let’s talk about it later. I’ve got to go. Let’s meet again before I fly back to the States.”


Hans is still a guy with straight forward personality. Susan, again, feels the pressure. The same kind of pressure that Hans asked him years ago.

Susan remains quiet. She meets Hans one last time before he returns back to the States. They eat together and spend hours talking about almost anything. Hans could date another girl, but he insists on dating with her. Susan doesn’t get it, but Hans is a good guy. Even if she doesn’t end up with Hans or when he is giving up on her, Susan hopes that he will find a nice girl who will treat him like a king and treasure him like a diamond.

Should she accept him? Should she say no? Susan does not know when it is the right time to say “yes.” Her mouth is just so hard to say it.

Secret Admirer

Secret admirer, secret admirer, where are you?

Are you there, secret admirer?

Oh, no! My secret admirer is gone with the wind!

Who dare to steal my secret admirer?!?

Do you steal my admirer?

Are you the stealer?

Maybe my secret admirer is bored with me.

How sad!

No worries, I’ll get one soon!

Secret admirer, are you there?

Ah, there you are! I found you!

Let’s meet up soon!

February 2

February 2 has left a bittersweet memory on me. It was the day I met Taxi Driver for the first time. No matter how hard I have tried to forget that day, the memory still come back to me every year starting in late December until February. I gradually learn and accept that this date, (maybe), is as important as my birthday partly because I cannot forget it.

Have you ever heard a phrase “We don’t meet people by accident. They are meant to cross our paths for a reason”? My encounter with Taxi Driver 5 years ago definitely has a positive reason down the road. I create this blog (1001 diarycollections) and IG account because of him. Thus, one day, when I could meet him in person, I will thank him because our encounter have inspired me to write stories. I don’t know his whereabouts, but I always wish him well wherever he goes.

**Picture source: personal file. Location: New York.

You are Still My Home

This the final chapter of the love story between Gray Cloud and Sonny Sunshine. The three other previous stories could be assessed in this blog with the title “2gether is Better Than One,” “You are My Home,” and “On My Way to London.

London has been good to Gray. She loves the city and her new job. Gray admitted that it was not easy for her to interview parents about their journeys raising children with medical illnesses. She often had to hide her tears as she was listening to their stories. The editorial team at work has been helpful to her, and this has made Gray felt relieved. She kept herself busy and often forgot to call Sonny. She used to think about Sonny day and night, but now, she likes her solitude life here in London.

“Hey, Gray ! Your friend is here. He has been waiting for you all day long,” said Cassie, Gray’s housemate.

“What?? Who? I don’t expect any guests…”

“Well, he’s sitting on the couch and reading a book. Go see him.”

Gray enters the room and sees Sonny sitting in the living room. She is speechless.

“Hey, Gray! Long time no see you! No food in London?? You are super skinny!!” said Sonny as he walking toward Gray. He then hugged her tight and kissed her forehead. His heart feel warm and happy.

“What?!? You don’t say anything to me? Like how handsome I am now??” said Sonny. “Ha ha ha ha.”

“Why are you here?” asked Gray.

“Of course, I am here to visit you. I am jealous that you could fly to England meanwhile I am stuck at work.”

“But, you love your job.”

“Hahahaha, well, I love you more than my job.” replied Sonny.

Gray rolled her eyes as she heard this.

They both went out for dinner after that. Gray couldn’t believe that Sonny flew all the way from Singapore to London to see her. Sonny hasn’t changed that much. He is still a man with countless jokes, though he is completely a different person when he is on the job. She could tell how happy Sonny is from the look on his face and eyes.

Sonny, indeed, is a very happy guy at this moment. He just cannot hide his excitement from Gray. He doesn’t want to let go Gray’s hand from his hand. Occasionally, he pulls Gray closer and kisses her cheek. This sounds childish, but he is a happy guy. As he holds her hand, he is thinking, he doesn’t want to return to Singapore alone. He wants Gray to come back to Singapore with him. He just have to find the right time to convince Gray.

Sonny doesn’t have to wait because Gray actually senses that Sonny is hiding something from her, and she wants to know the truth now.

“Tell me again why you are here?”

“Hahahaha. I told you the reason.”

“No, it has to be something else.. do you get into a trouble back home??”

“Nooo!!! Hahaha” Sonny continues to laugh and shakes his head.

“You want the truth?” said Sonny

“Yes, please.”

“I am here to convince you to come home with me. I mean, I want us to live and build a family together.”

“You know I am sick right?” asked Gray

“Yes, I know, I am the one who has always been there for you. I still want to live with you.”

“What if I am too sick and cannot have kids?”

“Gray, I don’t care. We could buy a dog.”

“Now, what if I die?”

“Come on, Gray! You will not die. If you die, I still want to live with you before you die.”

“I don’t want to leave London.”

“I figure you will say this. I will still wait for you. I have to go back to S’pore this Friday, but I will visit you again soon. The point is I want you and I live together. Remember what I said in the past? Two is better than one. So, you can’t live here alone because I won’t let you live alone.”

Sonny hugs Gray and whispers, “Now, will you dance with me? Because I am tired arguing with you.”

They dance without a background music in the bedroom.

Sonny suddenly pulls out a Tiffany’s box and asks Gray to open it.

Inside the box, Gray sees a ring covered with diamonds.

“Because you are way too precious for me, so this ring represents how I feel about you and our journey. You could keep it, and please wear the ring on your way back home.”

“You are still and always be my home, Gray. Come home with me, because I am your home. You have to admit it.”

2 gether is Better Than One

Gray Cloud’s heart filled with dark clouds after her doctor’s appointment. She felt sad upon learning that the lump underneath her armpit could turn into a cancerous cell sometimes in the future. No need surgery for now just a careful watch that was the doctor said. Too rush to remove the lump could trigger more lumps development. Gray Cloud kept this information to herself.

Sonny Sunshine is Gray Cloud’s best friend. People often think that they are dating, though the reality they are not dating. Gray knows that Sonny likes him, and she enjoys his company, too. Gray prefers to keep their friendship status as best friends because dating looks scary to her. Now that she knows about the lump and its risks, she is sure she wants to live alone. Gray thinks solitude is not a bad thing.

Sonny Sunshine’s personality is the opposite of Gray Cloud’s personality. Sonny looks cheerful most of the time. His daily job is to make Gray either laugh or mad at him. When Gray is mad, Sonny will laugh hard and they both end up laughing together. Sonny knows that Gray is a person who is very serious especially when she is working, and because of this, he likes to keep their interaction stress-free. Sonny is a serious hard-working guy, too, but he seldom shows it in front of Gray. He likes to act silly and joke a lot when he is around Gray.

The day after doctor’s appointment, Sonny noticed something was not right with Gray. As usual, Gray kept it to herself. He came up with a tactic to get Gray talking to him what is bothering her. Sonny asked Gray to be his girl friend. Gray rejected the proposal, but she declined to say the reason. Sonny insisted that he should know the reason why he got rejected.

After a week of unsuccessful attempt, Sonny accidentally saw Gray was browsing about cancer treatment. Sonny pointed to the screen and asked Gray to explain to him. Tears were running down on her cheeks as she told Sonny what the doctor said to her last week. Sonny gave Gray a hug and told her that he would take care of her with and without cancer. Sonny convinced Gray that she would be okay and that the lump would not turn into a cancerous cell. Gray Cloud is no longer feeling cloudy after hearing Sonny’s words, “Let me love you just the way you are. Together is better than one.”

When Yellow Doesn’t Want to Look Mellow

I like to call my friend, Yellow, Yellow Mellow, because she is very emotional person. She will cry for tiny little things, such as when she gets a gift from her boyfriend.

This morning Yellow called and told me that she didn’t want to look and act mellow again. She asked me to come early today and wait for her at the school’s gate. I was speechless when I heard this. 

I waited for her outside the school’s gate. I saw her in a pink dress along with pink shoes and pink hair clips walking toward me. She even wore a pink lipstick and said “Hiiii” to everyone she passed by.  


Yellow approached me and kissed my right cheek. This was new, too.. She never kissed my cheek..

I blurted, “Hey, are you okay?” 

“Yeah, how do I look?” She twirled her hair and shook her pink dress in front of me.

“Err… Don’t you think this is too much?” 

She grinned and said “Nope.”

I asked, “Why do you suddenly don’t want to look mellow? It’s part of your personality….” 

Yellow sighed and said in teary eyes, “I searched for a part-time job last week. I saw an opening in the event production, and one of the requirements was that they look for a cheerful and energetic person. So, I thought I needed to get a complete makeover..”

I told Yellow that she should apply for that job despite of her mellow personality. The company is looking for qualities not outside appearance. I told her as long as she didn’t watch Korean drama series at work, she would be fine and no one would ever noticed her mellow personalities. Yellow laughed when she heard my comment. She cleaned her make up before entering classroom. Yellow is now back to her real self. She is a very talented person, but she doesn’t acknowledge it. Ever since then, I no longer call her Yellow Mellow because I don’t want her to think that having mellow personality is bad. You could be both smart and mellow at the same time. Instead, I call her Yellow Melon. Her nickname for me is Lemon Lemonade. When I asked her why, she said she likes how those two words sounded together. 

Ex roommate. Where are you?

I’m thinking of my ex-roommate a lot. The last time I exchanged a communication with her was 5 mths ago. She was used to be on my Facebook but then I didn’t see her. Unsure whether she blocked or deactivated her Facebook.

Anyway, I hope she is doing well.
She works long hours, and she is very into fitness. Her boyfriend is also into fitness, so sometimes they go to the gym together. 

I didn’t anticipate to meet or spend 6 mths with her. She posted an ads on Craigslist looking for a roommate. I saw her ads multiple times, but I ignored. Then, I was only have a few weeks left before the lease ended. I sent her an e-mail. To my surprise, she responded my email and about two weeks after that I moved to her place. She owns a condo and I rent one of her rooms. 

Sometimes you never know whom you will meet. It’s a surprise! The key is to enjoy the process.