**All names and characters in this story are fictive.**
The last time Susan spoke with Hans was on Christmas day, 5 years ago. Hans is neither her best friend nor her special friend. He is simply a mutual friend, but he has been around her for 8 years. Susan doesn’t say much to him because she thinks if she has no special interest toward him, she should not try to get his attention. On the other hand, Hans occasionally sends a random message on important events, like birthday and Christmas. Not every year, it’s only when he feels he wants it.
Susan has been keeping herself busy with her job as a hospital director. Seeking a love mate is not her priority. She thinks getting married is a hassle and even if she decides to get married, finding the right guy seems a hard task for her, perhaps even harder than running a hospital. She fell in love twice in her life, but Cupid was not on her side. She had a nice guy back when she was in school, but she decided to let him go because she thought it was too early for her to commit in a romantic relationship. Hans was among the guys whom she was introduced with when she was in a college. Hans was a serious guy at that time, and perhaps still, and this somewhat scared Susan. A friend asked her why she did not want to date Hans, and Susan said Hans was too serious and appeared to be rigid. She disliked that kind of feeling. Too much expectation. Susan left every possible romantic relationship up in the air with any guys who is fond of her. This becomes her expertise. Love life is just not her thing, and she can’t explain why.
After so long not talking each other, Susan was surprised to hear news from Hans. Their conversation was about holiday activities, and as usual, Susan kept it short and simple. Two weeks after their first phone talk, Hans sent him a message. This time he said, “Hey, I will be back home for a vacation. A short visit, a week. Would it be okay if I visit your workplace when I am in town?” Susan kept that message, not sure what she would say. This morning, Susan replied. “Ok. Come to my workplace. I’ll send you the address.”
Three weeks later…
“Hi, I’ve just arrived this morning. Are you busy this afternoon? Can I stop by?”
Susan replies immediately. “Sure, How about 1 o’clock?” I have free time about an hour and after that I’ve got to see a client at 2.”
“Yes. That sounds good to me! I will visit my sister after that.”
Hans’s little sister is married already, and she has three kids. Her little sister is a chatty person. Her personality is the opposite of Hans’s personality.
“Maam, your guest is here. His name is Hans. Should I let him in?”
“Hey, Susan! Long time no see! You are looking great as always and doesn’t change that much since the last time I saw you.”
“Hahaha.. how are you Hans? How’s life on the other side of the earth?”
Both Susan and Hans are studying in the United States. They both worked in the States, but in different cities. Susan left home for good, while Hans remained in the States.
“So, this is your office. Looking nice and you have a nice view from here.”
“Thank you! So, what’s up?”
” Nothing new. I saw your travel pictures on Instagram. It looked like you traveled to different places. Meanwhile, I worked like a hell. Your last picture on Instagram made me to come home.”
“Yes, I’ve always read your captions. The last picture made me booked a ticket. It’s last minute. But, it feels good to be back home.”
“How long are you going to be in town?”
“A week. I have a few important meetings next week, so I must return to work next week.”
“Hm, are you dating anyone right now?”
“Why? You are not young anymore, you know? ”
“Yes, I am aware of that, but I like to live this kind of life.”
“Are you serious??”
Susan doesn’t know what to say. She smiles. She wonders why this guy is here and asks such a direct question.
“Susan, I am here because I have been thinking of you all these years. The last time you rejected me was my devastating moment. I was mad at you, so I didn’t look for you for a while.”
“I see. I am sorry.”
“However, you are always on my mind. I even remember your birthday. So, I still text you even if your answer is short.”
“I know. I am sorry again for giving you a hard time.”
“No, you don’t have to feel sorry. So, this is the reason I am coming home. I want to ask you to go on a date with me. What do you think?”
“Susan, listen to me. We both are not young anymore. You have impressed me so much years ago and still. Don’t you think we should try?”
“Hans, thank you for expressing your feeling. Can we talk about this another time?”
“Susan, what are you waiting for?”
“I just need more time. You come home and suddenly ask this type of question. I am not ready to answer.”
“Sigh. Fine, Susan. Let’s talk about it later. I’ve got to go. Let’s meet again before I fly back to the States.”
Hans is still a guy with straight forward personality. Susan, again, feels the pressure. The same kind of pressure that Hans asked him years ago.
Susan remains quiet. She meets Hans one last time before he returns back to the States. They eat together and spend hours talking about almost anything. Hans could date another girl, but he insists on dating with her. Susan doesn’t get it, but Hans is a good guy. Even if she doesn’t end up with Hans or when he is giving up on her, Susan hopes that he will find a nice girl who will treat him like a king and treasure him like a diamond.
Should she accept him? Should she say no? Susan does not know when it is the right time to say “yes.” Her mouth is just so hard to say it.