To Have and Not To Have Wishes

Christmas is rather unique this year.

It’s the first year I celebrate holiday party with children and parents at our school. 

It was a small celebration and turned out ok.

I hope to have more holiday parties with the children in the next coming years.

I hope to bring in more children and more activities to the party. 

Now that holiday party is finished, I have no specific wish for Santa. 

I truly believe that Santa Claus and God know exactly what I want and what I need. 

My longing to travel and explore other countries is still there.

My longing to go back to faraway land is still there, too.

The only difference this year, I need to build this school and care for the children. 

Wait, I do have specific wishes. I just don’t want to say my wishes out loud. 

What do you wish for Christmas? 

To Have and Not To Have Wishes

A letter to my future husband 

Dear my future husband,
I don’t know how you look, but I think you have a decent appearance. The wise said look at the inner beauty, not the outer beauty. 
I don’t know when and where I will meet you, but I know when the time is right we shall meet. I know that for sure. 

Maybe we have known each other, but we don’t really talk. Maybe you are a stranger to me. Regardless, when we meet, it’s going to be a new introduction and a new chapter for us.

I can’t promise anything to you other than I will try at my best to keep our relationship going, and I hope you do the same thing. There will be time when I accidentally raise my voice when I talk to you, and when that happens, please remind me. Also, when I suddenly distance myself from you, it’s not because I hate you, but because I need to think and solve something. I will ask for help when I need help. 

My hope for you is that there won’t be infidelity between us. I want you to love and enjoy what you do for a living. I prefer genuine actions to sweet talking. Last but not least, I hope you place our relationship and/or family above any other activities.

If there is no such a perfect marriage/family relationship, I hope we have 99.9% perfect relationship.


Your future wife 

A letter to my future husband 

The gift that I didn’t ask 

We went to the same school until 9th grade and were in the same class several times. He moved to another school, while I remained in the same school until graduation. We did not meet each other again until school reunion dinner in 2012. We exchanged contact number, but did not have any follow up conversations until 2 years later. 

I left US for good in 2014. Not long after I settled, he sent me a message because he wanted to refer a family to see me. He was a doctor working in the maternity hospital at that time. I am, on the other hand, a teacher/ counselor, you name it. 

Since that time, we began to chat, occasionally ate and watched movies together. Our conversation was mostly and strictly around his work, my work, and his plan for medical school. He sometimes asked whether I planned to go back to the States. I told him yes. Maybe I should not say anything, but the truth I did want to go back to the States at some point. 

I was busy doing my thing, while he was busy preparing for his advanced medical degree, up to the point we didn’t talk again. I kept telling myself if I could see him again 2 years after that reunion dinner, I perhaps could see him again once he is done with his medical school. On another note, I want him to get that degree and practice as an ob/gyn, so it’s better to not bother him while I am not sure with myself. If we are meant to each other, we shall meet again regardless the distance between us. I was told if you really love someone, you should be able to set that person free to achieve whatever he/she wants to achieve. That person will come back to you or vice versa. 

The gift that I didn’t ask 

Go Big! 

I’ve reached a point where I questioned myself whether I was on the right track in pursuing my goals and planning my future. I believe we all want to accomplish at least one thing in our life. I also believe we want our “life curve” to go up and remain stable on that level. I also realize that there has to be some ups and downs in our journey. I am told that these ups and downs were the ones that make us strong.

Instead of asking one’s feedback, I decided to read on other people’s blogs and compare their situations with my own situation. I was hoping to get something out of their stories and checked if there was a common theme from their stories. What I found from their stories was that they were making a bold move to achieve their goals. I bet it was a thrilling experience for them when they were making that move. However, I am sure they feel satisfied once they finally are able to hold or get what they want to accomplish. So, my dearest readers, don’t be afraid! Go bold! Do what you need to do so that there’s no regrets later. Last but not least, ask God’s blessings so that He will protect and guide us wherever we go. 



Go Big!